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Why does bad new = binge??
I was doing so well. BOOM! Bad news and on came the binge. My mother has been diagnosed with a Klatskin tumor. It is cancer of the biliary tree. Plain english is it is bile cancer. The only cure is to remove the tumor. The problem, this tumor is inoperable. Prognosis really sucks. 6-12 months. Radiation and chemotherapy are not very effective. No symptoms until other than jaundice which originally was thought to be due to obstruction in the duct in her gallbladder. My father died April of last year of kidney cancer. I guess I just didn't expect to hear the word cancer again so damn soon. Why the hell did I binge? What the hell was I thinking? Why the hell am I not doing everything in my power to get healthy????? How pathetic am I? Whining about weight when my own mother is so ill. Using bad news as an excuse? I think I better just pull myself together. Sorry about the emotional dumping. It's just been a really shitty day.
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Comment by Cindy on August 16, 2012 at 9:41pm -
Paula, I'm so sorry about your mother. I know you had so much pain after your father passed away. I cannot even imagine what you are going through right now. We are here for you. Hugs to you.
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Comment by Becky Trejo on August 16, 2012 at 10:31pm -
OH no sorry to hear about your mom! My thoughts and prayers are with you
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Comment by Nubia on August 16, 2012 at 11:34pm -
Paula, this is no time to blame yourself. This is in no way a typical situation and like Cindy, I can't imagine how tough it must be to have heard these news. Many hugs, many, many.
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Comment by Lynette S on August 17, 2012 at 12:00am -
Paula, i'm so sorry about your mom's health :-( Don't beat yourself up at a time like this, you come here and dump away. Hugs and prayers your way.
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Comment by Jill Mace on August 17, 2012 at 1:04am -
I am so sorry about your mother Paula. You have had such a painful time with your parents. I am sending you huge hugs. I hope you feel my thoughts and hugs through the screen. We are here for you. Talk whenever you need to. xoxoxox
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Comment by Angie Y on August 17, 2012 at 1:25am -
I'm so sorry girl. Big hugs.
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Comment by Melanie H. on August 17, 2012 at 4:53am -
I'm so sorry to hear that! don't blame yourself. sending love!
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Comment by Paula on August 17, 2012 at 7:21am -
Thanks everyone for the kind words. It means so very much to me.
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Comment by Keem on August 17, 2012 at 8:56am -
To be honest with you--a prognosis like that is bingeworthy. Sorry to say, but, some people use any bad news to binge---like if you have a fight with your husband, if your kids fight too much, if you are angry with your boss etc. Those are temporary things and not bingeworthy because they will pass-and they will likely happen again throughout life. Your thing won't. It's there. It's concrete. You had a right to binge. Don't feel badly about it.
Now that the binge is done, you pick up and find a way to get through the next 6-12 months and whatever time after that WITHOUT having a binge because of every little upset--kwim?
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Comment by Dee on August 17, 2012 at 2:23pm -
Oh, no Paula, I am extremely sorry to hear this news about your mother. What a painful time. I hope you will not worry any about this ONE binge. But you definitely need supports in place because the upcoming time is bound to be super stressful, and you want to eat well now not just for your weight, but for your strength. You'll be less likely to get sick from the stress if you take care of yourself. You might even want to join a group for people who have lost a parent, or are caretaking for an ill parent/spouse/child. Don't be mad at yourself for reacting strongly to a truly, truly difficult situation. It is not emotional dumping to talk about it here- you need more support than ever now for your healthy living goals, and I'm sure we all are more than willing to be listening "ears", and encouraging reminder-ers to take good care of yourself.
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