No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
Ugh, I'm in such a mood. I honestly don't know what it is anymore, I think it's just my mind rebelling at the thought of being "on" for 16 hours straight. Now that the husband is working earlier and earlier, I lost those 3 hours during which I could clean without having a child clinging to my knee or I don't know, take a 10 minute shower. I love my kids, but I need my time or I will crack. He's off tomorrow and Sunday and I know we both need it. I wish I could be all like, "SEE YA!" and be back 30 hours later. I don't know what I would do with free time, I'm just so tired I could sleep for another 20 hours.
Aside from complaining endlessly to myself, I have been trying to change all that negativity in my mind. I know the importance of watching what I tell myself or the dumb comments like the previous paragraph. It just gets hard to always be positive but it's a slippery road. We haven't been able to buy any more groceries but for quick trips to get milk, eggs, bread, necessities. My husband is now getting paid bi-weekly instead of daily (in cash) so it's an adjustment. A good one, but it happened a little too fast. I'm getting tired of the same meals and wish I had a chef inside my fridge with a full kitchen staffed by even more chefs. That'd be so cool.
I finally got the stationary bike set up in the living room yesterday but the kids thought it was a new toy. I tried setting it up behind the little safety gate by the bathroom but they wanted to climb over and started crying when they couldn't. I have gotten a grand total of 12 minutes on it in two days. The seat, I have to buy a cushion for it b/c it will break my bones. I'm not used to it, I guess that'll change? I don't know.
Church tomorrow and then coming home to decide whether I want to venture out with the kids and husband to a pool party. Whenever we go out, I'm the one that ends up watching the kids. He just has fun and talks and whatnot with the other people. That honestly pisses me off so much, he was there for the baby making, he should be there for the care taking.
I might just stay home and have him take one kid. We can divide and conquer. I just feel super pooped, it's 16 hours of nonstop... e/thing. They're so young, I can't stop watching them. I don't know if that makes sense. They can get into so much trouble if you just blink. Lol, this is why I'm crazy. I only have two eyes and they both stay locked together. I wish my eyes could go on separate directions. THAT would be cool.
Food sucks, but it's not horrible. I just don't have that much energy left to worry and stress over that, too. Not this Monday, but the next, things will go back to normal. Now it's just time to enjoy the ride and try to stop stressing out over e/thing and anything.