No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
Ugh is how I feel right now... I honestly don't know what other wording fits...
I am frustrated with my weight.. And want to get rid of all the excess crap in my body.. I want to be healthy and skinny and confident in my skin... Don't get me wrong on the latter.. I am confident (usually), but not in my body.. Does that make sense?? I love who I am.. Just not the body I am in.. And I feel that makes things an issue in the dating scene... like I want to be out and date.. and preferably find someone to settle down with and start a family.. but I think that people see my weight and not me.. and that’s what makes me upset.. and turn to food or sulk at home... Lately (since I started Body By VI) the bored food eating has stopped, which I am totally grateful for.. Now it’s just the sulking I need to work on... That motivation button needs to be pushed.. and hard... I can't get it to work.. I do great for a few days and then.. nothing.. I don't want to say that I fall of the wagon, cuz I don't think that is the case.. I know there are a lot of reasons to get in shape.. I'm not saying there isn’t... I just can't put a finger on what my motivation really is..
Here’s some reasons why I want to lose:
I know those are all really good reasons to be motivated to lose.. but something just makes me depressed when I think about it and I go sulk..
.... i'll figure it out.. i think..