No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
This is both a day for clean eating (and getting the wine out from last night) and a feelings dump.
So on the eating side I am just SITTING at 240. seriously, i need to see the 3. I will be diligent to see the 3!
In other news, the feelings side, the ex listed our old condo for rent which means he is moving in with the new love of his life. It gets worse. So he and I were together almost five years, and all I wanted was marriage. He refused. I was always "why can't you be happy with what we have? i don't want to get married again ever." He had a crazy crazy ex, and two kids. I as a super step mom, lets leave it at that. It is his condo, so basically it was me accept that or move out. In the end, I moved out. We attempted reconciling until last March. Apparently his six month anniversary was yesterday, which means their first date was 24 hrs after the last time we hooked up.
I think we can clearly say he is an asshole. His daughter barely knows this woman, and he has apparently cancelled a lot of time with his daughter (no summer vaca with her) for this woman. SO they are moving into this woman's house. Which I can appreciate the irony of the fact he will now be at her mercy like I was at his.
And the mutual friends are expecting a ring soon because they all know this woman and she is demanding and uber catholic and so on.
So I had my little irrational pity party with wine last night...the "why the hell was I not good enough to marry?" party...despite knowing i escaped and am lucky.
feel a lot better this morning, although a bit hungover. LOL.
so onwards. I have job prospects in two states and might have to move. cross fingers one comes thru, as i would like to get out of this life stall and move forward.