One Year Later...

I last posted in September 2011. My weight was 158. I was reeling from losing my job, taking graduate classes, and adjusting to life as newfound vegetarian.

Where am I now?

Well, since my last post I completed my graduate program, found a job, and then had to quit it because we needed to move to a new city 3 hours away for my husband's work. Then I found a new job in my new city.

My weight?

Nearly exactly the same, lol.

I think my last weigh-in back in 2011 I was 158. Now I am in the 155-158 range. So, I have maintained which is good. I am still in the same size I was then. I don't know if I am happy with this weight exactly - I'd like to get down to 145, and have been doing the weekly weigh-ins with Roni, but I am not really dieting as much as I am trying to just watch what I eat. I often wonder if it is even possible for me to get to 145 and stay there - it felt like such a losing battle for me the last time I was there. I don't know if it is realistic, or if I am making excuses.

I have remained a vegetarian. So has my husband. I tried to go vegan for a while but it became too hard and I felt uncomfortably obsessed with food. So I still eat dairy, eggs, and seafood. It can be tricky finding protein sources, especially because I get burned out when I eat the same foods. Peanut butter has become a mainstay.

I am considering a tummy tuck. I have had 2 consults and the price difference between the 2 was about $1500. I think I am going to get one more opinion and then try to schedule something for over the holiday break. I know a tummy tuck isn't a magic bullet, but the one thing that really bothers me about my body and always has is my stomach. I think if I could get it fixed so that I didn't constantly have muffin-top (seriously, I have muffin-top in my underpants) I would feel so much better in my body.

I like where we have moved to - it is strange how much friendlier people are here compared to the area I left. I have already made several good friends. I am not in love with my job, but I suppose it will do for now. And it will help me to pay for the plastic surgery.

Running is happening sporadically. I did invest in a treadmill when it became clear that running outside in the oppressive southern heat or trying to get to the gym with 2 kids were not realistic options for me. I am trying to get on there a few times per week. Last week I ran twice. This week, not even once. 

I am trying to just be nice to myself. The last few years have been very stressful, and relocating this summer was hard. I chose to just try to get through each day, one day at a time. I was looking for work, trying to unpack and get settled, and also caring for my 2 school-aged kids while my husband worked full time - all in a new area where I knew no one. How could I not struggle, you know?

Now that we are mostly settled, and I am working, and not freaking out about money, I am ready to focus more on taking care of myself.