I can't find any Balance

I can't seem to find time to get on here.  I wish there was an app or something.  I have been loosing the same 5lbs so I finally joined WW.  I didn't want to pay the $$$.  I have been on it for a few weeks now with some limited success. You can definitely tell the weeks when I follow to the letter and the weeks where I believe "I got this" on my own. I lost the first 70lbs on my own so I try not to beat myself up on the attitude and just get back on track.  I can't wait for this to be over so I can concentrate more fully on something else.  I know I will always have to watch what I eat and exercise which is fine but currently I just feel like my attention is split in so many different directions it would be nice to let one go.

I have been trying different running shoes, and hence have been plagued with injures.  Its driving me nuts.  I almost actually broke down in tears yesterday.  Thank goodness my husband is so supportive of this activity even though he doesn't participate himself.  I have a big race coming up and I am not sure how it will go because my training has been interrupted so many times.  I had been running a lot with friends so I suppose my training has already been interrupted.  My inner voice is also confused I spend so much time with others I am not sure of my own ability anymore.  Some think I can do it others think its suicide.  I no longer know what to think. I know in the past month I have had my feelings hurt many times buy better, faster, stronger runners where before I did not care. I am sure everyone just wants to help.  I had made a goal to spend more time running with other people to prevent burnout, but I think I went too far in the other direction.  I need to find balance.

Because of all the injuries I have had to start swimming which I hate but I seem to be improving.  A friend has taken the time to help me with it.  My son has swimming lessons at the same time so its convenient.  I also got a biking injury I think my seat was not adjusted right and now whenever I get on a bike my knee protests very vehemently!  That does not help with my miles challenge for 2012! (2500) I am going to play around with it next week I am healing this week in the pool.  Except Thursday/Friday/ maybe Wednesday when I promised to run with some new runners.  See what I mean about not finding any balance?  I need to get it together!