No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
I wondered for a few too many minutes of what to title this post. I think what I stayed with - 'Honesty' - is the most fitting. So, here goes.......
I am HOME. HOME as in Mexico City where I live and work. I have known forever when I was coming home. I made the flight arrangements a long time ago. Yes, I'm a US citizen, grew up there, born and raised there and the US is HOME. But as long as I work and live overseas I'll always have that 2nd home or 'other' home. So, here I am.
I knew that as soon as I got here I just desperately wanted to get back to my routine of healthy eating and exercising. I did nothing to prepare for that. I just knew I wanted it. Period.
It started last night while I was packing. I just had to have a few last glasses of wine knowing that I wouldn't be throwing down that alcohol when I got here. I packed.....and packed.......and packed.......I had a short list of things that I knew I couldn't get here (or if I could, they would be at a tremendous price) - PB2, maple syrup, Crystal Light, Skinny Margarita mix, Rotel (if you're from Texas, you'll totally get Rotel!), etc.....In the end, I got all the packing done last night and shockingly, woke up without a hangover. On my way to the airport I just got even MORE of this 'Oh shit, I better get it all in NOW before I got back to healthy living' attitude. .... I don't know where it came from or why but I can't say I'm surprised. That's the ol' Cindy rearing her ugly head - ugly, ugly, ugly head. I had margaritas at the airport, wine on the plane and just went for a Chinese dinner with FOUR alcoholic and really weird- not so strong- but still expensive- drinks.
I feel so miserable that I can't even stand it. I'm more than full. I'm stuffed beyond belief even though it wasn't that much that I had to eat. I'm just stuffed and not comfortable. Appropriate punishment if you ask me! I deserve the misery!!!
I am writing this as more of a beware to others who are on a weight loss high right now. I mean I feel obligated to share what I'm going through. I believe in the writing about the 'good', 'bad' and 'ugly'.!!! (If you couldn't guess, right now it's 'ugly'!) The 'high' of weight loss eventually wears off. At some points this summer I felt like it wore off completely but I certainly hope not! I acknowledge that what has hit me is that realization that this is a life long battle. If it wasn't for BTL I sincerely cannot say that I'd be jumping back on this weight loss journey as fast as tomorrow. I have managed to dig back into old and horrible habits as fast as I got into the good ones.
So, tomorrow I am sleeping in (too many nights without a good night's sleep in a comfy bed) and gym and grocery store.
I can only thank you guys on here because I am SURE I would not feel as accountable otherwise!!
Back to the Cindy you all know!!! :)