daily update

Today was pretty awesome. I was very relaxed because the kids had a sleepover at grammy's house, and I got to go on a date last night with my hubby! We went to Claim Jumper for happy hour and then saw a movie. I ate junk food at CJ's, and had I think 3 beers!?!?! I have no idea what happened. Moving on, we saw the new comedy The Watch. It was a total guy movie and had a lot of sexual references, not my thing but we ended up laughing a lot and it was overall funny but I could have done without all the gross references. We came home and I made myself a bowl of ice cream- and it was so good. I really enjoyed every single bite. I was telling my husband I struggle with weight loss because I am sometimes just content to be married and kind of chubby, my husband is a few pounds overweight and I really don't mind it at all, and he says he doesn't mind me having a little extra. The things that bother me/motivate me to lose weight are:

1- How I feel. I feel gross when my stomach bulges and my thighs press together. When I am working out I feel so energized and happy, and when I am eating healthy foods I feel so much better mentally and physically than when I eat garbage.

2- How I look in clothes- I am short- 5'4", and I am a pear body type, so I tend to get rather curvy in the rear end and thighs areas. I cannot stand when I have the extra on the sides of my legs and it sticks out when I walk. I want that gone.

3- Feeling self conscious at times in certain situations. I would like to not worry if I look pregnant in certain clothes. I would enjoy being able to wear something with a waist that shows and not have bulges.

So I went back to focusing on what I need to do. I have a friend who followed the HCG thing and lost around 30lbs in like 3 months and looks great. Now that she is off the extreme part of the diet, she eats just meats, and veggies. mostly cutting out carbs, having a small treat now and then. So I thought I would try a framework of what she does, cutting out all sugars and processed foods, eating lots of veggies, some fruit, and leaner cuts of meat. Today was my first day and I feel good. I had to go to the grocery store at one point and get some more healthy stuff, so I started out a little off. I am going to plan my day for tomorrow now so I can go into it already knowing what to do. Here is my food for today:

we were out of coffee so I made a cappucino mix for breakfast. Around 100 calories for 1 cup of coffee.

no breakfast, I wasn't hungry after my date junk food.

lunch: tomato slices with turkey pastrami and a little bit of real mayo (unfortunately I love mayo), rolled up.

half a cucumber and a whole red bell pepper, cut up with a little bit of ranch to dip them in.

snack: this was a mistake, I had 2 packets of Trader Joe's trail mix. Cranberries, cashews (yum) and almonds. 400 something calories for both bags.

dinner: 4 meatballs. Another mistake, I didn't know they were so high in calories. I heated up a bag of frozen ones from Trader Joes, they were really greasy tasting and I should have known better. I had them on top of lots of veggies- steamed broccoli, zucchini, onions and red pepper.

snack: just wanted to eat something :o) String cheese and 2 slices of turkey pastrami.

I did make low carb chili tonight and have chicken breasts thawing so I have more healthy sources of protein. I bought a box of organic spinach and tomatoes, lots of cucumbers, and I have all kinds of fun stuff to put on salads like seeds and grapes and dried fruits cheeses and healthy dressings. I am excited to have some yummy salads this week!!