No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
I think it's sad I was really excited to share this with you all, but I have no life and my two kids take up all my day. I had no one else to tell besides my sister and mom. LOL, I need to get out of the house more often...
So, after much debate and "That's not in our PRICE range" talks with my husband, we've decided to rent-to-own a house. Here's the kicker, my mother-in-law and brother-in-law are moving in with us. My BIL is 22 so he'll be out and about after he lives with me for a year. My MIL, on the other hand, has wanted to move in with us since her husband passed away 2 years ago. We had been married for a little under a year and it was an instant "NO!" from me at the time. Now... I don't know. I'm ok with her moving in with us, I guess. That's why we're renting a HUGE mo-fo house.
My dad left us when I was 7 so until I was 15, we were pretty much "homeless." We lived with family and never really bothered to label a house a home unless the three of us (mom, sis and I) were together. To think of living in a 5 bedroom home with 3.5 bathrooms is so crazy to me (and a YARD!). My husband was raised with a lot more money than I was so we are always arguing about what is too expensive and what is affordable. Food wise, it gets on my nerves b/c he's always pushing for steak at the grocery store when our budget is 2.5 the price of the f-ing steak. ANYWAY.
It's been decided and my husband has already talked to both of them. The plan is to save up on the rent they'll be paying us so we can make a down payment on the home a year after we move in. It'll be super nice to have a yard and be able to let the kids tire themselves out. Anxiety wise, I'm not sure. I'm a horrible person, no lie. I can't stand anyone until 2 hours after I wake up (or run) and prioritize cleaning below sleep. I'm also really picky about control, and not having it or thinking a decision is out of my hands really gets my anxiety going.
I'd hate if our living arrangement affected our relationship, but it seems like it's the best decision right now for e/one. I'm praying I can be myself and not make anyone try to kill me in my sleep. Not being able to run and having no time to work out on my own is a bad, bad, bad thing for me and anyone around. I'm like having my own bitch-o-rama show anywhere I go.
I have to start waking up earlier to hit the elliptical and tire my anxious ass out. I can't stand myself some days, I wish I could run again :|