Am I there yet?

So another day has gone by and I have not made the healthy choices to lose weight. I think I need someone to get on me and say "My you have really changed...have you gained weight. You need to work on that!" I have reverted back to my fat pants and it is not cool. I was started to drink 8 glasses of water last week and believed I saw improvement but now not so much. We ran out of bottled water...which caused me to feel terrible about all the landfills, however i do not like water very much and only enjoy purified water, I have not begun exercise because,,,no excuse,,,just because. Remember when you were younger and adults would ask why did you do that...Because...that's it because I can. No rhyme or reason just because I can refuse to deny the elephant in the mirror, I refuse to deny that my thighs are starting to look like the coolest roller coaster you could ever ride (dips, bumps etc). I refuse to say he fatty you just had two pieces of cornbread and you want to eat that brownie. I say heck ya and it tastes so good! You know people try to blame society for their self esteem but you know what? If society did a 180 and said fat is in... I would still run the opposite direction. Did I say run I meant wheel my office chair in the opposite direction. They say thin people are usually anxious people that constantly move. Hmm would I like to be thin and feel /look like I have squirrels in my pants. Eh not so much. You know I have no i-d-er where they come up with this stuff. But hey dont knock until you try it right. So here i am in my 30 min commute setting the cruise control and moving my legs as if I am Wilma. And when no one is looking I am at my desk marching while I am typing etc! Come on! Do you think it really helped? Not sure but when consulting ,the blackberry cobbler didnt seem to think so either. Whatever! i wish I could wake up and be happy with my body( i attempting to type bod but my chubby mind wouldnt let me since Bod is usually associated with hot,eh)! Who knew when i grew up I really wouldnt lose my "baby fat"?