Sarah's Blog (13)

I have a friend -she is a mom of on of my daughter's friends.  This woman is amazing - so sweet, great mom, very giving....all around awesome.  And as you know here comes the but....my big butt!  Well let me step back and just say, it's so sad that when you have a food addiction issue it isn't as easily hidden as say a tendency to drink yourself to sleep each night or to pop a few of your kids' ADD pills to get through the day.  So I digress this woman has seen me about 40 lbs thinner and…

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Dear me,

we are going to chose to forget the little fiasco you had today.  you know what I'm talking about - the not so 'fun' size candy bars (5 to be exact), the 2 slices of bread with dinner, and the two  three mini cupcakes.  That emergency burrito you ate at 10pm was really uncalled for.  Then the cheese and crackers on top of it were really wrong too.  Yeah lets just pretend that didn't happen because if you don't play pretend…

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I'm on week 2 of weight watchers and I lost 1 pound my 1st week. I know I should be happy with that but I've been a long time weight watcher and I'm at my highest weight so I figured I would have that nice 3-4 pound water weight loss we normally get that 1st week on plan.  Is this typical with points plus? 

So it's Thursday and I only have 18 weekly points left.  My struggle is dinner at my mom's every night. My dad just can't quit with the bread, fried potatoes etc etc and do you…

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Coffee .... I drink a cup or two in the morning, thats fine.  This time of year I get a craving.  I crave coffee at night...when my kids go to bed - and with that coffee I crave sweets.  There is nothing I love more than an evening brownie, cookie or slice of cake and a cup of coffee.  Well.....really that turns into half a pan of brownies, half a dozen cookies, or forkfuls of cake until I feel sick.  I have also tried to have a 100 calorie hostess pack with my evening coffee which turns…

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I have noticed over the years that I'm more successful when losing weight if I'm borring.  I mean that if I eat the same things every day - give or take I do much better. 

Since re-starting this journey I have been eating (for the most part) the same basic thing every morning.  A turkey sausage patty on a whole wheat english muffin.  It is so good, it's warm and it fills me up.  Lunch twice this week was lean cuisine pizza (peperoni with pineapples added - the key is cook it in the…

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I'm on day two of Weight Watchers.  I'm doing the online/mobile program - no more meetings.  No offense to anyone who attends the meetings but I just can't stand them.  The reason is I have attended weight watchers on and off every year for 8 years.  I know every meeting topic.  I do not ever want to be handed an empty paper plate again with the instructions to write what I'm going to eat on thanksgiving on the plate.  (BTW I didn't get fat by only eating badly on thanksgiving). 

On a…

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I haven't posted anything on here in a very long time but after a 50 lb gain that took almost no effort at all I am back. I have to be back. I can't live like this anymore.  I have become a binge eater and it's really really out of control.  So today I'm taking control. Like an alcoholic before rehab I binged today but I also signed up for weight watchers on line. I love their iphone ap. 

I realized today that I am actually embarassed to lose weight - does that make any sense. Like…

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Breakfast: Fiber 1 muffin, cutie & coffee

Lunch: Turkey Sandwich & cutie

Dinner: Pot Luck (eeeek!)

Well, I've been MIA from any kind of attempt at healthy eating/living for a while now. I haven't weighed myself in a month or so and I'm sure I'm just about where I was when I began my weight loss journy 3 years ago. I have come to the conclusion that I can not do this without the support of weight watchers. I have tried to do it on my own. I have tried to enlist a friend and do it with them, I have joined a gym and flaked out on that. I have said it many times but I'm an addict through and… Continue

I actually (almost) followed my eating plan to a tee today!!! I added a small frozen yogurt so that adds 4 points. I want to post my weight weekly too so as of this morning my (bloated PMS) weight is 175. I am listing a few goals below that I know I can accomplish!!!



1. Get into the 150's by halloween

2. Get to my goal weight by New Years

3. Figure out what my goal weight is.

4. Ultimatel wear single digit sized clothes.

5. Feel good enough to take a family… Continue

I'm going to try to plan tomorrow's menu....something has to give! I don't know how to get back in the swing of things so I'm going to try this! Here goes!

Breakfast
Oatmeal .....4
Apple.....1
Coffee....0

Lunch
LF Salami.....4
Ak Maks .....3
Fruit Salad....1

Dinner
Smart Taste Spagetti.....9
Marinara....1
Ground Round.....4
Squash....1

28 pts

I just got an e-mail from someone on blog to lose about a survey. http://www.complaintsboard.com/complaints/can039t-stop-emails-c29975.html don't fall for it.

As I sit here - 174 lbs - 20 lbs heavier than when I started my weight watchers journey 2 years ago, I realize...IM ANGRY! I'm really really truly 100% mad at myself. I'm fat once again. My pants don't fit. My shirts are clinging to me. I can't stand looking at my double chin in the mirror. I'm mad that food has once again become my companion - non judgemental, always good tasting, always good feeling...until the next day when I can't put on my pants or look in the mirror. Why do I rationalize… Continue