No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
I had "plans" to start "dieting" and quit smoking, as of the First of the year. Who doesn't? The First came and went and I ended up with the flu. I finally went to the doctor, stepped on the scale and couldn't believe my eyes. 202 pounds?! Is this for real? Okay....so I had stopped fitting into all but two pairs of my largest jeans and I could no longer tuck in my blouses if I wanted to. It's just so much uglier when it's staring you in the face. Oh yeah, and I did stop allowing pictures to…Continue
For those Weight Watchers, who have heard, "If the program isn't working, you're not working the program."? Seriously, this could have been my mantra the last year few months. I am doing my best to be as honest as possible about this last year of whining about WWers. To be honest, the clarity is almost comical, I was really a whiny last year! I had a lot of 'why me' moments. Why do I have to always watch it? Why do I have to stop eating?…Continue
Weight. No loss this week. I was hoping for a loss. It seems one week I’ll lose a pound and the next week I just hold steady (sometimes 2 weeks). I will continue to keep eating the way I am since it seems to work every other week or so.
Body Image. I’ve been feeling fat & not liking what I see in the mirror. When I do not have a loss, I often feel let down and see myself as a Henretta Hippo.
Fitness. After completing PiYo I just finished my 3rd week of a hybrid workout of…Continue
Another new year and like most people I've changed my diet. While I'm not dieting, per say, I am trying to focus on more vegetables and fruit and less chocolate, less eating out, less ice cream. I'm tired of my focus constantly being on my weight. It humors me when people tell me that I'm not "fat". Ok, buddy but the scale doesn't lie. I'm 5' 5" and am over 220#. I'm fat.
I'd like to lose between 60-80#. 80 seems unattainable and 60 feels doable. Years past after I've lost the…
I can't say I am loving my new job. For one, the training is pretty unorganized. I am sitting with each member of the 20 person team and it is up to them what content they share with me. Also I think I may have bamboozled on my job description. As you all know after some time off from work I am re-entering the workforce as an hourly employee instead of as upper management. Part of the reason I chose to do that was so I had less responsibility and quite honestly didn't have to think as…Continue
Have you ever noticed this phenomenon? When I take care of myself, take breaks, do things for myself, wear clothes I like, speak up for myself, say no, etc. my eating sort of corrects itself. I have fewer urges to eat when I'm not hungry and I make better choices. I make time for exercise and have…Continue
I often like to tell myself how hard I have it. It's hard to lose weight. It's hard to exercise. It's hard to stay motivated.
Today I got an email from someone I volunteer with for the school, she has been diagnosed with a disease that will change her life and will prevent her from completing some of her volunteer commitments. She told me how hard it was to disappoint some of us. How hard it has been to try and keep these commitments. It has really struck me how hard things are going…Continue
Well - I am officially registered for the Disney 5K tomorrow. All the crazy excitment has me dreaming of doing a 10K / 1/2 Marathon and Marathon someday. Hey a girl has to have a dream right?!
Got on the road at 3:30am this morning. Can not tell you that my "food" has been healthy by any stretch of the imagination. I am committing to get with it as soon as I get home and just try to make some good choices while I'm here.
Here are some pics. Race in the morning at 5:45am. …Continue
I had a really hard time deciding what I #FlatOutLove for Roni's challenge! It was a little bit sad to me. Am I that out of touch with myself?!?! Kind of eye opening. Sounds like a good New Year's Resolution, get in…Continue
Monday morning I weighed in at 148.5.
Tomorrow I go for my vein injections this is a follow up from the varicose veins that I had worked on a year ago. I have my follow up with my orthopedic surgeon on Friday just to touch base and let him know where I am and how this has "spread". Then I leave his office to I go see a naturopath! I'll let you know how it goes. I also had emailed another doctor that actually replied and I have the name of another naturopath that specializes in…Continue
I wasn't going to say anything until it had been a whole week, but I gave up the juice Sunday. That's right. No soda for three full days. Like always, he is going kicking and screaming. I mean he was quiet for the first two days but last night he hit me with a severe migraine headache so bad I considered taking him back. I didn't, but he isn't going quietly into the good night. I was up every two hours in severe pain. I feel super crappy today. I even took my migraine medication and…Continue
I am repeating to myself, and honestly, anyone that will listen, that I AM IN THE ZONE. I think that in this case I need to follow that old adage, “fake it until you make it.” I have clearly been on the wrong path lately, and this is one of the ways I know I can help turn myself around. Keep telling myself that I can and I will eventually believe myself!
I do (already) have some hard parts on the horizon so I am going to put my intentions out here to be accountable. We have two trips…Continue
It is tough staying motivated in the cold snap we've been having. It is below zero and tonight I just wanted to crawl under a blanket, but after work I did my workout. I always feel better after I do. I just do not want to get in the habit of missing a workout for a lame reason like it is too cold. Our basement is not very warm, but it gets me moving for sure. I really need to get those tiny tastes and smidges of food that I don't think…Continue
In about two and a half hours I will officially rejoin the work force. I have a lot of mixed feelings about it, but I have decided to ignore them all and take today in stride. Not only have a been out of the work force for almost two years but I left it at the top of my game and I am rejoining it on the bottom of the totem pole. I need to just get that out of my head!
One thing I am really concerned about is food. I have no idea how things work there or what I need to…Continue
Not the only Beatles fan on here, right? I have been gone a long time!, but I want to come back, I need to come back. I need help!
I came to BTL about 50 times in the last month. Last week, I opened a tab and left it open. It seems quiet funny that I was bargaining with myself on coming back here. “After new year’s… one more binge… if I’m good for a week…” But seriously, forget all that, I need help. And, in a perfectly timed message,…Continue
The husband and I worked out together yesterday and I did something I have always wanted to do. I worked out in a tank top. I mean I always have a tank top on when I work out, but then I have another shirt on over it. I would never show that much skin in public! It drives me crazy though. Not only does it make me feel overheated but it also gets in the way when I am working out.
Yesterday I decided enough was enough. I got ready for the gym at home and didn't even pack…Continue
Early December began the season of weight loss commercials. Every year I feel almost inundated with them. Up until about two years ago, they use to always make me feel bad about myself - until I changed they way I thought about this journey.
A few minutes ago, I saw this commercial and I really feel like for the first time a company hit it right. Now I'm not a WW program member and I do not subscribe to any weight loss program that I have to pay for any more, I did want to share…Continue
Well, I hate to say it, but its back to work tomorrow. UGGHHHH, I have so enjoyed the peace and quiet of winter break. True, there's been a lot going on, but I've kept a peaceful pace. The best thing about this week is that I only have to work two days and then its off to Disney on Wednesday. Yeah!
Got my second run in of the year today. Mind you when I say run - I'm still doing the walk/run program of a C25K app on my iPhone. I repeated Week 7 Day 1 (again). I got through all…Continue
I appreciate all the support that you all gave me on my last post! Again much time has passed since my last post. Four days before Christmas my 17 yo daughter totaled her car. My dad just gave it to her for her seventeenth birthday, barely 2 months ago. She was pulling into the plaza where she works and was in an almost head on collision. She was given a ticket although her light was green she didn't have the green arrow for the left turn. She is fine, thank god! She was a basket case…Continue