I sometimes feel like I want this to be a perfect solution that works right away and I have to continually remind myself to slow down and realize this is a marathon, not a 40 yard dash. I see it will be a series of small victories that will lead to a bigger change. I get so impatient!
Today I made Stove Top Stuffing which is a food I normally binge on. Unfofortunately I didn’t journal that or anything over the weekend but I know I want to get back to that. I have to force myself to… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 25, 2008 at 4:30pm —
Had a weird experience today. I found myself hungry so I decided to eat. But I purposefully went to the kitchen and started making macaroni and cheese which I love to binge on and I knew it. Basically I made it knowing I was going to eat the entire box. Is that really bad? I put almost all of it into a bowl and knew I was going to go sit in front of the tv and eat it all! Since I knew this was happening, almost like an out of body experience, I decided to try to think about why I was doing… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 24, 2008 at 4:30pm —
Based on my two observations in my last post, I can definitley see a pattern developing here….LOL My DH is definitely a TV lover and, to be honest, if it were just me i would probably hardly ever have it on. I need to clean off the dining room table so I can sit there to eat rather than going right to the couch.
I am also finding two other things that are triggers for me, procrastinating and being tired. As I become more mindful, I will try to check in on these issues and see if… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 23, 2008 at 3:00pm —
I haven’t heard anything on the job so I am thinking she decided not to interview me. But I also haven’t gotten a rejection. I wish I would get the rejection so I could just move on. I think mentally I am hoping this will work out. Better commit to looking for jobs today!
Here is my first food journal (this is a way to track food and feelings to try to discover connections between the two, this is a scientific process so I should wait until I am hungry to eat as much as possible but… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 22, 2008 at 4:00pm —
Okay so something weird happened last night. I went to a friend’s house to watch the BCS championship game and got to talking with one of the other women there. She told me she was from Canada which is what sparked the conversation. I told her I had neighbors from Canada and that we should get together. Then she said she works for a university near my house. I told her that I had applied for several jobs there and she said “You might have applied for my jobs!”. It turns out she is the hiring… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 22, 2008 at 3:00pm —
Added by fanchy on January 13, 2008 at 12:00pm —
After reading the ebook on www.normaleating.com I think I am ready for Stage 2. I printed up the eating log and hunger scale and will begin tomorrow. I am kind of excited even though I am very nervous. I have felt my eating urges more in the past few days since I decided to start this process again but in reading the ebook, I realized that any changes are going to bring up more extreme emotions for a while until I settle into the program. That made me feel a little better.
I am going… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 6, 2008 at 4:00pm —
The exercise for stage 1 is to create a weight history. Here is my weight history:
17 years old
I was preoccupied with what my boyfriend was doing which was mostly cheating on me and if not that extreme, then making it very clear that I wasn’t the most important person in his life. I spent a lot of time preparing for school to look as good as I could to make him jealous and want… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 6, 2008 at 3:00pm —
Today I discovered a site called www.normaleating.com
. It is a variation on the information found in “Overcoming Overeating” and there are many people working the program on this site. I have already signed up and am looking forward to everything I will do and learn. I hope there is a lot of information and exercises on the site so I can feel my progress. There are 4 stages total and I may already be ready for number 2 but I will read more and keep… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 4, 2008 at 2:30pm —
The title of my blog came to me when I started thinking of why I wanted to do a blog and track my journey in the first place. I recently went to Six Flags with my nieces and nephew and watched as they rode all the different rides, eyes wide in wonderment and joy and realized how much I wanted to feel that. I LOVE roller coasters! But I was frozen with worry and sadness because I felt I weighed to much to ride. I am sure I am not heavy enough to be denied a ride but the visual of my cart… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 2, 2008 at 5:30pm —
I had just started weight watchers again and was trying to be perfect! I knew as soon as I got in the car after work that day that it was going to be a challenge not to go home and eat the refrigerator. All the way home I talked to myself and told myself what I would do when I got home.
Walk to the bedroom
Change into workout clothes
Have a plan-following snack (carrot sticks!)
Healthy dinner with my husband, T
Sounded like a good plan….until I… Continue
Added by RollerCoaster on January 1, 2008 at 5:00pm —
Boy, I'm feeling tired and drained of energy, the opposite of my typical passionate functioning level. I've been wanting to share this blog post for a couple of days, and I'm just feeling lazy right now. But I'm going to force myself. It's something I believe to be very important.
I discovered Jillian Michaels talk radio show
the other day. And her topic from the 12/28/08 one really stuck… Continue
Added by Caylyn on November 30, 1999 at 12:00pm —
This week I stepped on the scale and I was 219.3. That was down 1.3 pounds from the week before. But it was up 1.3 pounds from 3 days earlier when I weighed. Yes, at one point, I think Monday or Tuesday I was at 218. I weigh myself on our wii fit. This particular week, my husband was sitting on the couch watching me. So when I saw the number at 219.3 on my 'official' weigh in day, I started complaining. Many times Chad has provided that objective voice of reason when I'm being dramatic. He says… Continue
Added by Caylyn on November 30, 1999 at 12:00pm —