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Today was my Mother's funeral.
I did not enter this day with any expectations nor with any high hopes, as I knew that to do such a thing would be futile.
Instead, I gave myself permission.
I gave myself permission to do anything that I damn well pleased. For today only, if I truly felt that I "needed" to smoke, I would. If I truly felt that I "needed" to drink myself into oblivion, that would be okay too. I gave myself permission to just be and that it would be okay. I…Continue
Going through a bit of depression, possibly. After three weeks of watching over my dying Mother, she finally crossed over to the other side. I wish I could say our family gathered around her in her last few moments and that she will be deeply missed and that she was surrounded by so much love and happy memories in her last few days of life. Unfortunately, this wasn't the case. Our story is so much crazier than anyone could ever imagine.
I will summarize this in as few words as I…Continue
On Thanksgiving Day of 2014, my Mother was admitted to the hospital with excruciating abdominal pain. She was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and a portion of her colon was removed. My Father stated that the doctor had gotten everything and they felt fairly confident that everything was taken care of. Upon visiting my Mother in the hospital, she admitted to me that she had never even had a colonoscopy and did not understand why this would happen to her. I asked if she would consider…Continue
Today, for the first time in a very long time, I realized that I could sit on my haunches with my feet under me (and my butt resting on my feet) COMFORTABLY. I have not been able to sit like that in years. I know it's an odd thing to notice but my quads were (sadly) never limber enough to be able to hold that position before. I know, I know...our parents always told us not to sit like that so I probably shouldn't even be admitting to it! The other thing? I can now CROSS MY LEGS! Lol! Hey,…Continue