I am hear to get my life on track. Weight is something I've struggled with as long as I can remember. Married and well into my 20s, my weight cannot simply be chalked up to a fight against social stigma and desire for an asthetically pleasing shape. Today, I fight my weight to stave-off pre-diabetes, lower my blood pressure, and to have a fighting chance at having a baby.
We spent the fall of 2009 doing fertility treatments in hopes of getting pregnant. After 3 unsuccessful (to varying degrees) cycles, my doctor made the decision to hault treatment until I could get in the best shape I could possibly get to. With fertility insurance that has a clear-cut ceiling, the doctor felt we were "spinning wheels" trying to get pregnant now with so many factors working against us. Even if I'm still annovulatory after a significant weight loss, the medications to stimulate egg growth, etc would would a whole lot better if there was - - well, less of me! In addition, risks of miscarriage and high risk pregnancy would significantly decrease.
After a good 2 months in deep depression and another 4 months just getting back to a "normal" that didn't involve sobbing every time I saw a baby or found out a high school friend was "unexpectedly" pregnant... I got my head together and have found the determination I'll need to see me through this fight.
For the first time in my life, I know I will win this battle. I have too much at stake not to.
"Success is my only [...] option – Failure’s not”
~ Marshall Mathers / Eminem
Plan of Choice:
Low Fat, Low Carb, High Fiber, Other
I'm new to exercise, I only exercise because I have to
"Sarah, Congrats on meeting your goal! That is super. I find your honesty and openness regarding food refreshing. I remember getting to move the bar down to the next 50 lb increment and it was so exciting. YAY!"
"Just the thought of " did a little dance in the restroom" made me smile! Way to go!
I totally understand "naughty eating weekends" It's Fair week, in my neck o' the woods. I'm finding that the regular…"
Saturday, I met my short term goal (deadline was July month-end) of getting BELOW 300 lbs. This is something I haven't seen or accomplished since 2007. It was an amazing feeling to finally be able to push that heavy square on the balance-beam scale over to 250. I got off the scale, did a little dance in the restroom at work, and went home.Saturday night, and this weekend past in general, was the last weekend my best friend would have to spend with her 2 boys for a good while. The boys are going…See More
"*hugs!* Congratulations on your progress!
My theory is that maybe your husband thought you were doing well and assumed he could jumpstart your loss a little more by making you do things his way. Some people just like a little shoutin-at; my brother…"
"i loved that last line in your blog. i also relate with the scale inaccuracey frustration. i get weighed on a balance beam scale at the doctors office and come home to see my scale is (i can only assume) weighing me 8-11lbs lighter. kind of…"
"Hello. You left a message on my post about just starting metformin. I will tell you that when I was trying to conceive (for 3 years) undiagnosed with insulin resistance, they did finally put me on metformin. With metformin, I probably lost about…"
"that is probably what i exactly need, but with hubby working 2 jobs and 4 kiddos and its spring break, i do not see that in my near future. TOM is coming in a few days and i totally feel out of whack. Hopefully I will find a way to reboot myself,…"