No matter the plan... we all Blog to Lose!
I find Mary's story TOTALLY inspiring not because of her weight loss (which is AWESOME) but because of her change in attitude!
My success is a matter of overcoming one single thing... It was a badge I had been wearing for years and on that badge was the word "VICTIM" Letting go of that badge unlocked the freedom to accept myself and love myself.
The goals that I have achieved have been to divorce the cheating husband of 20 years whom i blamed for all my problems. I have lost 70 lbs. with the help of the weight watchers program. I have gained a love for exercise..(never saw that one coming.) I let go of my need to consume large amounts of alcohol almost daily because of course "poor poor me"
It took 20+ years to leave my husband (staying for the kids don't ya know) It took right at a year to lose the weight. It took one day to stop the drinking and that was the day I left him and the badge behind.
The new goals I have set for myself is to hopefully inspire others who may be possible hiding behind that same badge or just by being willing to give a very personal part of myself. I want to continue to exercise even though injury (knee during jazzersize) and surgery(degenerative disk in the neck, two level fusion) seems to have put it to a halt as of late however i refuse to put that badge back on. I am developing a love for yoga which the Dr's give me the ok on. I bought a Wii Fitt and am slowly building back my stamina. Be the healthiest and happiest me that could be!
What has changed the most about me I would have to say is the inner peace i feel now from letting go. Of course my body has changed i went from a size 16 to a size 8. Highest weight 214 and lowest 142. Now I am at 162 I am 5'8" and 48 years of age. I have found my soul mate whom had been right in front of my eyes for 30 or more years and he treats me with the respect that i now demand and deserve, and accepts me for who i have been, who i am, and who i am becoming.
The hardest thing i have ever done in my life was to admit that I played the victim. Once I was able to accept that fact the rest sort of just began to fall into place. How I overcame being the victim was from attending a "weekend lock down" with a group of about 80 or so other people for some serious soul searching and letting go of the past sort of Dr. Phil thing. Mind you it did not happen overnight and as a matter of fact I left there that weekend pissed off and thinking it was a big crock of poo. As time past i began to see how i did indeed allow myself to be a victim and over a period of time i began to see it clearer and clearer until i said to myself, "Self, you are a victim!" I allowed my husband to cheat on me by staying in the marriage, i allowed myself to blame my weight problems on him as well and also the drinking. I found comfort in a bottle and a "super size me meal" instead of standing up for myself and loving myself enough to be strong and let go of the chains and free myself from all that I blamed.
I had never joined a blog until today. I had found Roni's site at the beginning of my WW journey by just pure luck of surfing. I guess I have been what you call it? a lurker? by the way "way to go Roni on your success" I think I found you right after your surgery. But I can tell you that I see it helping me on my journey of this thing we call "Life" I refuse to be anything other than a success even though i have gained 20 pounds over the past six months due to injury and health issues. The new me knows that I will find a way to exercise and I will lose the extra weight again. I too have to immerse myself with it.. eat, sleep and drink it. syphon what I can from others stories of their accomplishments and their defeats. They are all lessons, and now I hope that i can contribute something myself, give back to all those of you that were so unaware that your words and your thoughts and feelings cheered me and and continue to do so every day, and I would like to finally say to you THANK YOU!!! every one of you that contribute in my eyes are extraordinary beautiful successes.
Never say never and never say die... you got to acknowledge and accept if you are indeed in the company of me... the one wearing that badge so that you can begin to let it go. Of course I am not saying you need to go on some weekend soul searching lock down either. Not everyone shares my same story but maybe just maybe there may be a few out there and you don't even know it yet... If anything I have said at all rings a bell..Know that you CAN do it too...I did.
Mary - you ARE an inspiration and may I say... you look darn good in leather! lol :)