Kickboxing 20…

I bit the bullet, and decided to hire a personal trainer - today was the first introductory session where they measure and weigh you.... yeah, that was fun - NOT.  Quietly breathing..... they are just numbers... and they can only go down...whew ok... back to the plan.

During the assesment, I did 5 pushups - it was hard, but I did it.   I am super excited and super freaked out all at the same time.  I think I am excited as i have finally taken some steps to up my game - but intense…

I weighed in at 172.4 this morning, which is less than last week, but since last week's weigh-in was so uncertain, I'm not sure how much. Could be as little as .2. That's still a loss, I guess.

I had a nice run with the dog this morning. I hit snooze too many times and started a bit later than I would have liked. The dog was pretty worn out halfway through. I think I'm going to have to start earlier as the weather gets warmer since she has a surprisingly low tolerance for heat.…

I am glad that the work week is coming to a close. I've been doing good hitting my mini-goals. Most mornings breakfast is a banana w/tablespoon of almond butter with flax seed. It is made by Earth Balance and it contains no sugar. I wasn't sure I would like it but I found I really do. Lunches so far were big tossed salads with tons of veggies. Today I brought in left over lentil/couscous stew. It was a nice break from the salads. So far this week I've made 3 soup/stews. I am keeping away…

~Workout

8.96k -65mins Run/walk



Sigh... look at that, really, it's not 9k, it's not continuous running, but it was actually a better effort running because there was over 10mins worth of walk time and it's so close to 9k.. These little details frustrate me in a good way.   

~Measurements



Previous Measurements in December, even though my weight hasn’t dropped much there is a significant difference in my measurements since then.  



Weight…

Sooo, anxiety.  That's gone now.  I ate enough, I may have eaten it, too.  I took two days off running before that race and then another one after it.  The anxiety was bad the day before the 10K and super crazy-bad the day after.  I don't think I'd run enough those four days.  I usually cover 8 mi in four days (since mileage has gone up in training schedule) plus walking distance.  I pretty much did nothing while on rest.  I see the pattern.  No run = crazy-mom-anxiety, which leads to eating…

I was approved for some running on Monday! So this morning I got up early and pulled on my brand spanking new running shoes and went to the gym. I'm SOOOOO glad that I did - this past week hasn't been as good for me as it could have been.

I am authorized to do 90 seconds of jogging followed by 30 seconds of walking, for up to 30 minutes. So I did a 5 minute warm up, followed by 15 90-second/30-second splits. After that, I kept walking for another hour and a…

So I'm trying to watch what I eat and I've started cooking breakfast. I am not the cereal with milk/ slice of toast kinda person. I like nice hot meals. I try to make bkfst the night before, but I had no time to eat the bkfst I made!

Here is what I ate:

Bkfst (mccafe)- small skim cappucino, banana muffin, kiwi

Lunch- tilapia, salad, rice, bit of iced tea

Dinner- some bread, almonds, pasta, shrimp

Total was about :1400 cals

My goal is to eat 1200…

This is the first time I'm actually sharing this with anyone.  But I am officially single.  I lived with my ex off and on for a year with a brief move out break in December.  We've tried to work out the things that bother us ~ well at least I can say that I have tried very hard to be accommodating ~ but it just wasn't enough.  Last night he told me he doesn't know what he wants, that he doesn't think he wants a girlfriend, and that he sees no long term future with me.  I guess that pretty…

GR.. Well, totally went crazy today.. (i guess you can call it day before diet binrge)..

Im quite upset. I wish I tried harder to do better. How the Heck do these people, call it a lifestyle AND keep at it for years!!?!?!?!? ANy IDEAS, TIPS!! GREATLY APPRECIATED!!

Well ths is how my stupid day went!!

B: 2 mandarins, yoghurt, watermelon/fruit

L: Pumpkin soup, a bit of beef marinate, 1 mandarin

S: Tempeh with red sugar, pineapple

D: Stewed apples,…